June 29, 2014 1:40am

The skyline was beautiful on fire
All twisted metal stretching upwards
Everything washed in a thin orange haze 

I said, "Kiss me, you're beautiful -
These are truly the last days" 

You grabbed my hand 
And we fell into it
Like a daydream 
Or a fever 

Dreams

I used to always reset to one point in my life. When all my friends were alive and happy. Now things have changed, I reset to the last time I was happy. Thing is I don't know when that was. I'm brainstorming and trying to figure it out but I always find a better moment to reset to. It's like I've run out of save points and now I'm just defaulting to whatever I can remember. Point is I don't know what the hell I'm doing. I'm just doing. My life is a game that I don't want to finish but I have no other game to play. 

Nights

When the sun went down last night I couldn't stop the thoughts from rushing my brain. As the night progressed I slowly bent the twig I call my sanity until it snapped. At night I feel crazy and confused. There's something about the darkness that drives me insane. I don't like the darkness. I don't like night. I want to thank everyone that puts up with my shit. I still havnt grown up yet. I'm trying. 

Mornings

It's always nice to wake up with someone next to you. Make love in the morning and be able to talk and chill while sharing some laughs. We are all just looking for that person that we can be comfortable around and have fun. Not everyone finds them and some even lose them. Thinking ahead in life is hard if we are in a place we don't want to leave yet, don't try to stay in a place in life if the reason your there has already left. I'm trying not to turn my blog into a huge bummer so bear with me while I work through this mess I call my life.

All I got

I have a great job that I really do love.

Great friends that try to be there for me as much as possible. There's no reason for me to be negative or bummed but sometimes u can't ignore the truth. I woke up the other day and realized we are all animals and act on those animal instincts, no shit right but I didn't realize that until I paid attention. I stopped drinking as much and I feel a lot better about everything. I don't ignore the things I should be paying attention to. I cleaned up and stopped taking pills for now. This shit is a struggle. Being mostly sober throughout the day definitely makes it feel longer. Sleep is a lot harder now though. I'm gonna have to deal with being alone. 

My brother and main man

My little sister and angel 

So far..

This year has been rough and I havnt had the time to feel anything til now. This is my blog where I can keep record of things in life. Time to start fresh

These are my friends, I don't see them a lot but I love them.

This is my baby girl chewy (chew-atta) and I love her to death.

It's complicated

Trying to come up with a good design 

 The End